This is a copy of a 2007 post I made at Ex Scientologist Message Board (slightly edited, with a glossary added).

If you are not familiar with scientology slang, read the Glossary below.

Jerry Fallenberg

 

San Jose Mission & LA Sea Org

 

June-Aug. 1976: student and PC at San Jose Mission

 

Sep. 1976 – Nov. 1979: Sea Org, Los Angeles

 

 

I first became aware of Scientology in 1976 while I was a music student at San Jose State University. Nancy Olsen, a disseminator from the San Jose mission, struck up a conversation with me on campus and I accepted her invitation to attend an introductory lecture.

 

After the lecture I began reading DMSMH and Fundamentals of Thought. I enrolled in the Comm Course for $25. During one of the TR drills I experienced myself perceiving the room from above my body. This made a big impression on me.

 

I paid over $1,000 for auditing at $50 per hour, which used up most of my savings. After the auditing I enrolled in the Student Hat course.

 

I liked Hubbard’s insights and the high morale that I saw in students and staff members. I was doing fine as a college music student at the time, but I had a notion that I had found something better than music. I dropped out of college and signed up with the Los Angeles Sea Org, wanting to be closer to source. My parents tried to warn me about Hubbard and Scn, but my mind was already made up.

 

In 1976, pay for EPF members was $5 per week, along with free substandard housing and food. This was just before the purchase of the Cedars complex. We were berthed in a multi-story house in L.A. off of Alvarado, near the old LA Org. I recall seeing RPF members there.

 

I stayed on the EPF for about one year. It took me so long probably because I had no prior Scn staff experience, limited auditing and no tech training [training to become an auditor] beyond the Comm Course. My EPF work consisted mainly of:

Cleaning

Assisting with building renovations at the Cedars of Lebanon hospital

Caring for the children of other Sea Org members

 

My EPF training period was interrupted for about a month when I was sent on a mission as a night watchman at the newly purchased complex in Hollywood. Escrow had not closed yet and there was a fence around the buildings. One night I temporarily lost my set of keys to the complex. I found the keys, but was replaced on the mission and returned to the EPF to continue my training.

 

After a while EPF pay was raised to $8.60 per week. The low pay did not bother me while I was in the Sea Org. I did not feel exploited. I thought that I was making valued contributions to a humanitarian group.

 

We were told that Hubbard did not receive any of the church income. This turned out to be a lie, as I later learned that he directly controlled Scientology overseas accounts.

 

After graduating from the EPF I was assigned to the Cadet Estates Org (later renamed Child Care Org).  By that time, the Sea Org orgs had begun moving into the complex.

 

Outbreaks of lice occurred periodically with the children. The childcare operation was illegal in that the adult-to-child ratio was too low. We always knew ahead of time when we would be inspected by government agencies. This allowed us time to give extra attention to cleaning, take some of the kids to a park or temporarily bring in extra adults to create the illusion of a legal adult-child ratio.

 

My posts while with the Child Care Org were governor, day care center nanny and briefly day care center I/C.  My last year I was briefly the Cadet Org Coordinator.

 

After three years in the Sea Org, some rationality began to return to my mind. This resulted partly from developing a relationship with a woman who had joined the Sea Org during my third year. We eventually married while we were both still in the Sea Org. I became a step-parent to her four children. Trying to develop caring relationships with them helped me wake up to the irrationality of the Sea Org way of life. Sea Org schedules severely restricted the time that parents spent with their children. I realized I could not be an effective parent under those conditions.

 

Also, for the first time I began to question the church’s policy of charging high prices for auditing. If this was supposed to be a humanitarian group, how could we justify charging high prices for auditing and courses? I couldn’t justify it in my mind.

 

In the 1970s I believed in the scientology goal of clearing the planet, but towards the end of my time in the SO I concluded that Hubbard’s technologies and policies were incapable of achieving that goal. A couple of reasons being the excessive price of auditing and auditor training that was too slow and complex.

 

I gave one week’s notice to my supervisor before leaving with my wife and step-children. A couple of staff members later came to my room and said they were there to collect my scientology books and policies. I handed them over without objecting, even though I had personally paid for the books.

 

Also, I was told that I would be sleeping separately from my wife. I obeyed and slept at the complex while she stayed in our apartment on Fountain Avenue. I think their intention was to find out whose idea it was to leave and to see if either one of us could be salvaged as staff members. Both of us wanted out. My parents picked us up and we left.

 

My transition was not easy, even though my parents were generous with their love and support after leaving Scientology.

 

Not until years after leaving the Sea Org did I realize that I had been a Scientology robot. While in the Sea Org, only what Hubbard decreed truly mattered.

 

After studying cults, deprogramming and various exposés on Scientology, I began structuring a Scientology recovery program for myself.  I chose as a recovery goal to equal and surpass my pre-Scientology level of prosperity and contentment – a goal I have partially, but not fully achieved.  Last year [2006] I posted a version of the recovery program at alt.religion.scientology.

 

I occasionally use bits or modifications of scientology concepts.

 

I consider Hubbard to be one of the major criminals of the 20th century, but I do not blame him or his church for any difficulties I have experienced in life.

 

Jerry Fallenberg

 

 

Glossary

 

Auditing

One-on-one Scientology counseling that supposedly increases intelligence and ability.

 

Cadet Estates Org, aka Child Care Org/Cadet Org

A Sea Org organization responsible for the care of the children of Sea Org parents.  Continually understaffed and underfinanced, providing illegal, substandard care for children and babies.   “. . . was eventually dissolved around the start of the 21st century after Sea Org members were forbidden to have children . . . “ (Wikipedia)

 

Cadet Org Coordinator

A post in the Sea Org responsible for assisting adolescents in making the transition into being a staff member at one of the regular Sea Org organizations

 

Cedars Complex

Cedars of Lebanon Hospital and a few nearby buildings in Hollywood, California purchased by the church of Scientology in the mid-1970s and used to house various Scientology organizations.  The buildings were renovated by Sea Org members, many of whom were paid less than $10 per week.

 

Clear

A person cleared of their aberrations through Dianetic counseling.

 

Clearing the Planet

A scientology goal promoted to staff and customers:  ridding society of aberrated thinking and behavior through the use of scientology and Dianetics.

 

Comm Course

Communication Course.  An introductory course teaching basic scientology concepts on communication.

 

Dianetics

“Hubbard's derivative (of Freud's abreactive therapy, among others) mental healing therapy; scorned by the mental health

profession as being unscientific nonsense. Strangely, even though Hubbard used mainstream psychiatry as a source for Dianetics, he

went on to vehemently attack psychiatry and its practice with paranoid fervor.”  (from ARS Acronym/Terminology FAQ v3.5)

 

DMSMH

Dianetics The Modern Science of Mental Health.  Book written by Scientology founder, L. Ron Hubbard in 1950.  Explains theories on the source of human aberration and the remedy (Dianetic therapy).  A handbook for attaining the state of Clear.

 

EPF

Estates Project Force.  Basic training and indoctrination program for new Sea Org members.  Schedule consists mainly of manual labor and study of Scientology materials by founder, Ron Hubbard.

 

I/C

In-Charge.  Head of a section or unit in a Scientology organization.

 

Mission

A Scientology franchise authorized to deliver basic counseling (auditing) and courses to Scientology newcomers.

 

PC

Preclear; a person who is receiving scientology auditing and has not yet reached the state of clear.

 

RPF (Rehabilitation Project Force)

A gulag type organization within the Sea Org to which people are sent for punishment and thought reform.  The program includes extensive manual labor, sleep deprivation, mandatory confessionals, and communication restrictions.

 

Sea Org (SO)

A group of dedicated Scientologists willing to work long hours for little pay.  The Sea Org had the power to manage non-Sea Org scientology organizations, such as missions.

 

Source

“Hubbard, as ‘Source,’ is regarded as ultimate authority and as infallible.” (Margery Wakefield, “Understanding Scientology,” chapter 14)

“L. Ron Hubbard is the Source (capitalized) of Scientology; his written orders in the form of Policy and Tech, and his spoken words on tape are Source.” (from ARS Acronym/Terminology FAQ v3.5).  In actuality, much of what was published under Hubbard’s name was plagiarized.

 

Student Hat

A scientology course that teaches concepts on how to study, such as looking up misunderstood words and being able to apply or demonstrate what one is studying.

 

TR

Training Routine.  A Scientology drill for practicing the components of communication and controlling other people.

Video demonstration of TRs by Jesse Prince and Stacy Brooks.

Humorous TR demonstration – scroll down to Beginners Guide to L. Ron Hubbard Part 5

 

 

 

Additional Scientology glossaries:

            Simple Scientology Glossary

Operation Clambake Scientology Glossary

Official Church of Scientology glossary

            The Language of Scientology -- ARC, SPs, PTPs and BTs, Margery Wakefield

 

 

Last modified:  March 2018